Had her hand in her mouth from the start!
It's been a while since I have updated my blog. I wish I had updated it
each month during my pregnancy, but I was always SOO busy doing a
million things. Anyways, I had my little Aamira (My Meera) on August 13,
2012! I really felt like the worse soon to be mommy since I was always
doing the 'wrong/unhealthy' things for the baby. I craved sushi so I ate
it, I wanted coffee so I drank it (diluted it with hot water). On the
other hand I was really good about eating right. I always had roti for
lunch at work, made sure to have about 2-3 fruits a day, and I
incorporated flax seed powder into each breakfast dish I had.
I really didn't feel ready for a baby during my entire pregnancy, I felt
like others were more excited about her delivery than I was. I have
been so used to living my life without such a big responsibility that I
wasn't ready to give up all of my selfish 'me time.'
Time flew by SUPER FAST! I really feel like it was not long ago that I
found out I was preggers. I remember my hubby and I were in a HUGE fight
during Christmas Eve, and I was upset the entire day with him. During
dinner nothing seemed appealing, I wanted to vomit thinking about eating
any of the Indian food we had made. I really felt like I had some
insane sickness since I had taken two pregnancy tests and they were both
negative. We found out that I was pregnant the day before New Years
Eve! I remember Aman (my hubby) came home from work SUPER EARLY and was
SOOOO EXCITED.
Fast forwarding to the day before she was born (she will be up any
minute for her next feeding). I found out that I was actually going to
stay at the hospital at about 4:00am on August 13th (I had already been
at the hospital for 4 hours!). The nurse brought me into the delivery
room and I saw the babies heater, beanie, and all the other goodies. I
cried the second the nurse left and hugged my hubby. It's crazy but I
still didn't feel ready for a baby, I was SOO afraid of our life
changing in such a HUGE way. About 12 hours later (hours that felt like
they would never pass), little Ms. Aamira was born.
Strangely, I still don't feel like I am a mommy (only because she's
sleeping and I have some FREEDOMMM, hehe). It wasn't until I brought her
home that my emotions kicked in. This baby has really impacted my body
and it's emotions in every way. She cries when she's hungry, and milk
already begins dripping. She makes a strange noise while we sleep and I
am up and ready to find out what's wrong. I had to start giving her
formula since I had an infection and I cried every day for a week (still
very emotional about it). Her smiles make me smile, even when she is
asleep. I love this little pooper more than I ever imagined. Anyways,
it's time to head out...mommy has to do a few things before baby wakes
up!
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